throw it all away. bleh!

As I sit alone in this empty house, I can't control the involuntary smile that comes to my face. My family is in Taguig already, but I prefer to be left here so I can see my HS classmates. I'm hugging the chance to be with them, because there will be no more other time left for us.

I went to a friend's house tonight, and to my surprise, I saw the light of my life. Not the literal light, but he lights up my day, heart and mind everytime I see him. I like it better when he's at home because its very different from how he looked like in school. He looked so lousy and untidy on school days, but he's neat and simple when I see him in the neighborhood. Maybe that's what I like about him. He confuses me, makes me think of him, what is he doing, where is he, who is he with and everything. There was a part of me that wants to see him and the other part, wants to forget because nothing will ever happen even if I want to. Hoping! Okay, you can pity me. But he's lucky enought to have me want him. Haha. Its so funnneeeeh! Maybe I'll just dump my worthless feelings. Pweh! Are you a vampire? Lol.

Anyways, I was half frustrated for my Practicum. I passed my resume to some companies in Makati, and until now, no one ever called. I'm hopelessly waiting. I don't know where I'll end up with my OJT if nothing will happen. I got a reply via email from ABS-CBN but its just a computer generated message so I'm not that sure of it. Can you help me? If yes, tell me. If no, then get out. Lol. Kidding.

Two nights alone. Goodnights.

all you need is love

I was trying to kill myself these past few days by intoxicating myself. My stomach is still rumbling, but who the hell cares. It was fun being with my HS friends. I missed them a lot. And another event will be held tomorrow. Prepare your lungs and liver guys :)

Because of the call, my Twilight trip was interrupted. So today, I'll be reading it again. Preparing to meet Edward Cullen.

I won't go home without you

Its sembreak but I try my very best to be away from home. I just don't feel the ambiance and there's something missing that I'm trying to find out. Heh. So here's a rundown of what happened to me this week.

Monday- I stayed home and slept. Bleh. Cleaned the house and watched Epic Movie.

Tuesday- Went to school and got the first sem grades. Check. I passed everything. Then we went to Makati and passed our resumes in some precious companies that we dreamt of appying for OJT. There's Leo Burnett, (their office was OMG! Ang ganda!), Ogilvy & Mather, McCann WorldGroup. These are advertising firms. Then we also went to Siemens and Accenture. I'm praying hard that even one of them will call us back for an interview. We need to have the company before Nov. 4. Or else...

Wednesday- Went to Greenbelt for the Glitterati event. We were the Production team. I was with other classmates so it was a new bunch of bonding we made. We were so effin tired coz we carried 500 something lootbags to a bar's 2nd floor. And mind you, I carried them while wearing heels. I just killed my feet! We went home around 3am. But as always, it was worth the tiring night when you do the job you like, right?

Thursday- Went to MOA for Project Runway. I was there in the afternoon but because my college friends were still somewhere trapped, I didn't went to SMX. I'm quite guilty of not showing up, but what can I do? I'm alone that time. I just met up with some of my HS girlies. We ate, took pics, and drank a little at Pier One.

Friday- Went to school and met Ferdie. And surprisingly, I got a form for the SPREAD scholarship. Wahaha. I hope I'll be granted 100% scholarship. I need it and its my last sem, so hopefully.

In advance, I already have plans for my weekend.

Saturday- go to Vista for the kids' Trick or Treat night. Its an annual activity for cousins and I'll mix in. Haha.

Sunday- planning day for the HS reunion. I hope my friends will show up so we can finish the plans that we started.

To wrap it up, I'm home alone. Waiting for a star to fall on me.

HPBD Granma!

Its my grandmother's birthday and I want to thank God for giving her another year to share with us. Too bad, wala na si Lolo. This will be her first birthday without him. Sad, but we have to be strong, and enjoy the day. Happy birthday! Me loves you so much!

Also happy birthday to Lem. Thanks for the nice and green memories that you shared with me. You're one of the people I know that can make me laugh. See you when I see you again. Love you too! Happy beerday! Comedy tong pic na to. I look so young, and you look... Hahaha!

bedroom ceiling

I fell into a deep sleep after staring at my bedroom ceiling. I was waiting for something to happen, thinking of crappy thoughts, treasured memories and the people I have in my life. That's what I do when I'm bored. Next time, I'll be counting bats instead of sheeps. Perhaps that'll lay me down to sleep faster. My head needs understanding sometimes. And while I confuse you of what I'm talking about, I'll tell you about my day.

I made my day by singing alone in our videoke. You know, its my only chance to sing. I don't sing outside our house. I got the mic and sang just to enjoy the day. My family and the bathroom are the ones who can only hear my singing voice, if I have any. And I think our neighbor got envious of my videoke trip and now I can hear their videoke turned on too. Haha.

The best news for today: I passed all the subjects this first sem. Yehey. And because you're here in my spot, I'll give you the privilege to see my grades. But don't laugh at it, okay. Ethics not yet encoded. 1 is the lowest, 4 highest.

I'll be out later to see my HS friends. We were blasting each other's inboxes these past few days. And the gathering today will be our revenge. Hay, I was so eager to blog here but haven't started my article. I can't say anything. Someone will kill me.

Bye. Laters. Will be updating real often, its break ya know.

break na talaga tayo!

Its our official sembreak for reals. I want to feel sembreak, and hoping I can. Some random things I have to do during these free days:
-find a company for my OJT!
-finish my sports articles
-contact more classmates for the HS reunion
-visit Lolo's grave
-more sleeping hours
-find someone who can completely understand me.

I'm a bit sleepy now. I'm often out of the house. I just come here to sleep, take a bath, change clothes, check my online world and kiss Jigger. Something's been pulling me to stay outside. Idk. I don't like staying home these days. Hay. Bye.

champagne supernova

I haven't touched a keyboard or any hardware for a few days, but it felt like a century to me. I was out for the weekend. Twas all good. I better be out there than here. Bleh!

Thea@18. Ferdie dragged me along with him to Mam A’s sister’s debut. It was a late realization for me that twas good to celebrate a debut like that. I just ignored the turning point of me becoming, uh, a lady. If I could turn back time, maybe I have agreed to have a party. But that was past so let’s jump. We were asked to host the party. And yeah, we just met the debutante that night, we don’t know the people surrounding us, so I was running out of words to say. But in the end, it was all good. Strawberry wine party, videoke fun, swimming and new friends. I didn’t get to sleep that whole night. It was funny that I met a guy with the same name as his. He's also cute.

The EPPs were supposed to be 8am. But hell yeah I woke up at 9:30. OMG. I thought it was the end of moi, career and dreams. No EPP, no clearance, no graduation. The best thing was our facilitator, Mr. Jovencio Fernandez, was kind as God. If we were handled by other profs, I knew I’ll be dropped somewhere else. Again, thank you Sir!

Then on the EPP night, I was again dragged to Greenbelt for the Etc Yuppieoke event at Red Box. It was so cool. We managed the registration and after that enjoyed the night. I want to go back there with other friends. Our room was raided and it was part of the show so those who have time to watch ETC might as well check us out there. Our first tv appearances hahahaha. I like that. I’m working on my resume now. And looking for a company to keep me and my OJT. I’m also thinking of the sports article. Blag! Have to sleep. Mock interview tomorrow and goodbye EPP.

sembreak na tayo

"Pay more attention to yourself. There is only so much you can do to help others."

That's from my FS horoscope. I don't really believe that much on zodiacs, but its fun to read them. Maybe its true and not. I have to look and help myself. Was I giving too much to other people? Idk.

Sembreak's knocking at my door but won't let it in. We'll have EPP next week and then orientation. Then maybe we can finally rest. But I'd rather do those things than stay stare at the ceiling. Everything's been happening so fast.

I would like to thank the following people for my fourth year's first sem. Random!

Mom for being there, classmates for the laughter and alcohol we've shared, Jigger for making me happy, good professors, the D.O.'s for making me itchingly irritated, Tsiklet for the nice accommodation whenever we're in rush printing. I'd also like to thank the new people that I just met recently, the dorm mates and friends. Coretech for the alcohol supply. Hahaha. Kevin for making my heart skip a beat whenever I see you. This maybe the last and I won't stalk on you next sem. Anyways, thanks.

I'm going to pass my last requirement in Techniques today. Off to Mam A's sister's debut. Time to chill and set my mind free. Will be back Sunday morning.

last shot

I am partly happy and sad that the sem's ending. I won't get to see the retarded discipline officers everytime I pass gate 1. I'm really irritated about them! Blah! Then I'm sad because I'll miss the classroom days and laughs. Well, everything's got to end.

Grad peyk. We had our graduation pictorial yesterday. Fun. I ended up as Tiger Lily/Pocahontas/Indian Girl in my creative shot. Its so hard to think of what to wear when you're not prepared. Everyone looked beautiful that day. Aw. So here's a glimpse of what I looked like. (if it matters. Haha!) Its one of the few shot we managed to do because other cameras are not allowed inside. That one's with Cleopatra. Haha. Loves Yem.

Tomorrow is the last exam day. StratMark closing ceremonies. I haven't revised my paper, so that's what I'm ought to do now. Toodles!

why the sky is blue?

There's an answer to that question, so alam na natin. Get the answer here. LOL!

The sem is almost in the end. The final exam kicks off tomorrow! Last chance to fill the papers and pass all requirements.

Its also a good week. I met new people again and its so cool to have new friends. As I've said before. I'm looking forward for more acquiantances. Haha! I almost forgot my responsibility with the highschool reunion we're cooking last month.

I'm also building my nerves for the sports article I should pass as the final exam ends. Pray for me.

I still love someday we'll know. And add accidentally in love to the list.

See ya.

loveeet.

I welcomed October with weng weng and Red Horse, the curse, its bang. Met a few new people which I can add to my friend's list. Did it for AJ's birthday. I love her eh.

And I love last sem college life. Grabe. Its our last week na, then finals next week, then end of sem. But we don't have to rest. There's Practicum Orientation and EPP pa. Let's keep on rocking our lives. Get the happy days starting. Mamimiss ko talaga ang mga ulupong na classmates. Lately lang kami super nagbobonding, at masaya.

I demand for MORE! I love ye MKA43. Rock! Haha.

I'm in some state of euphoria. I saw the CL boys a while ago. Its been a while but its good that they never forget. (I hope so?!) Kasi sexy na raw ako. Ok liars. But there's a bitch sa gig, kaya walaaa. Hahaha. But you can't beat my happiness. Bleh.

Bye. I'm bombarded with final paper works! Boo. Quiz in Accounting and Shoot Day for Chocnut tomorrow. Gotta sleep. Time check is 2:30 am na.

Loves,
Pats