loser

I used my brain last night. For the first time, I turned my back away from a gig call. I was a self-confessed addict. Due to unbearable incidents like a number of assignments and reports for today's class. I felt bad not going because the whole event was planned. That's what I hate about plans. That's what I hate about destiny. Sometimes, it doesn't go my way.

But then again, I got a brain that I used to choose between right and wrong. Its so hard for me. Sorry for the people I disappointed. I won't make promises anymore. But I'll make it up to you guys next time. So erase your bitterness towards me. And don't curse me.

Have to go.

why do I love thee?

WHY DO I LOVE CRAMMING OR RUSHING
ASSIGNMENTS AND PAPER WORKS?

I don't even know why. But I have to admit that I'm sluggish. (at times)

wishes

I wish I can fly to where you are
And say the things you long to hear
To touch your face and wipe those tears
And if I can cast away your fears

I don't know who am I to you
Or who you are to me
We don't owe anything to each other
So what's the point that all of us' bitter?

This won't go anywhere, I knew
But there's nothing else I can do
So I'll just stare at you.
Oops, I just hope that wishes do come true

miss you

I missed updating this spot. I missed sitting here, thinking and saying how I feel. The sem is fast approaching, and I'll be dealing with epistaxis, with the paper works, homeworks, reports and pressure on the side. I need a lot of good luck to complete the recipe.

I also want to say what I learned about life lately. Its short, but sweet. Sometimes unfair, but you just have to deal with it. Live everyday like its your last. Love the person beside you. Laugh as if there's no tomorrow. When you the opportunity's there, get it. Don't let things pass you, cause its a one way ticket. Ya know what I mean. Yes, its a reflection about life. Oh my life.

I'm loving life now. I'm growing up. HAHAHA. Wuhoo.

Hearts,
Phat

OP

My first day was.. fine. Super daming freshmen at dahil dyan pati ilalim ng puno may mga tao. Parang kami pa ang naOP sa school namin?? Pero oks lang, masaya tumawa. Pero ang ayoko lang ay yung nagsisinungaling. Kasi masama yun, at hindi naman tinuturo sa school ang kasamaan. Bwaha. I'm not a saint but trying to live the right way.

Hindi ko talaga alam ang dahilan pero masaya ko pag pumapasok ako. Bukod sa nakikita ang mga crush ko (uuuuyyy HIGHSCHOOL punyeta!) Bukod pa sa araw-araw na paglalakad at sa pagwiwish na may makasabay kang cute. Yan ang gawain ko. Ang nasa utak ng isang taong walang magawa, at kasalukuyang hinahanap pa ang tunay na pagkatao. Simpleng mga kasiyahan na 2 out of 100 persons lang ang nakakaappreciate. Maswerte ka pag nakahanap ka ng partner mo sa krimen na gagawin. At dapat malinis syang magtrabaho kung ayaw mong mabuko o mabukulan. Nagets mo ba ko??

Mas masaya rin siguro ang buhay kung may gig kang mapupuntahan tuwing weekends. Kung makikita mo ang mga bandang gusto mo. Kahit pwede ka namang makinig sa radyo at paulit-ulit mong patugtugin and CD nila. Gasgasin mo, basagin at bumili ka ulit. Sabi nga ni Jay yan. GUSTO KO NG BUHAY NA BANDA. Ayun ang tunay na kaligayahan. Dahil adik ka, nagustuhan kita. Dahil adik ako, papanuorin kita. Dahil adik tayo, uminom tayo. Wag mong ideny. Pero mas gusto ko pa ang maggig kesa mag-alaga ng boyfriend.

Sa palagay mo? LOL. Iiwasan ko na ang mga panahong wala akong magawa, dahil marami akong nasasabi. Well, well, well. Just an opinion -Simon Cowell. LOL

beck to schewl

First sem starts tomorrow. I'm either excited or nervous. Lol. I'll miss my cyber friends. I'll miss being a bum, and I'll miss melting in your eyes.

I'm hooked on THE USED. Because I am so. Literally. And more love to Kill Heart Tactic.
I still love David Cook, and Jason Castro. But am hoping to meet someone else to give love.



Phat changes stat to school girl mode and sends love to everyone who passes by.

idk

Nagtagumpay ako sa listers night. Muntik pang hindi dahil may mga pumipigil. Masaya na masakit sa ulo dahil nasipa ako ng kabayo!!! Punyeta. Sa lahat ng gig na napuntahan ko don ako tinamaan ng grabe na lang. Para kong inuntog pero ang saya hahaha. Namiss ko rin sila at harassment. Kahit kabaklaan lang. Speaking of bakla, super deny ako kela Ira na manunuod ng CL. E kase baka may masabi na naman sila sa banda e. Rawr. Basta masaya yung gabi. Dito ako magaling. Magandang gawain to. Talent. Whachamacallit.


At sana hindi pa ito ang huling gig ko! Dahil may pasok na ko sa 11. Putangina. Kabado ko. Basta. Ayoko pumasok. Pag malapit na dun talaga ko natataranta.

Urbandictionary- nice site. Haha. Eto na lang pag-aaralan ko. I'll post some words that made me LOL next time.

WALAAAAA. Blangko na naman isip ko. At mga huling araw na bored ako. Matatapos na ang kaligayahan. Hello trees, and school. Sorry sa mga putangina. Gusto ko lang sabihin dahil putangina talaga eh. Kakasimba ko lang ha. Distress.....

Sorry na masakit sa mata. BAD WORDS.

Sa tingin ko bumaba na ang David Cook fever ko. Haha. Puta e noh? Jason Castro mode na kasi. At hindi ko pa rin mapurrfect gumawa ng mga icons. Badtrip. Gusto koooo nun.

Jason, my belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble,
Tres bien ensemble.


Fcuk, gay.

oo, adik ako.

Woke up with a cracking headache. E kasi naman mga 4am na yata ko nakatulog.

ADIK ako. ADIK ako. ADIK ako. ADIK ako. ADIK ako. ADIK ako. ADIK ako.

-chant yan. At dahil nabasa mo yan in 2 or 3 days magiging adik ka na rin. Isa itong confession na nagpapatunay na magulo talaga ko mag-isip. Pero infairness, nacocontrol ko pa naman ang kabaliwan na to. Ah basta. Adik nga ako eh. Sorry.

Pests. Sana matuloy ang mga lakad ko bago magpasukan. Dun ko na lang kukunin ang lakas ko. Okay. Give up na rin ako kay Daddy Long Legs dahil wala namang nangyayari. Hindi sya marunong lumabas ng bahay at makipag-usap sa ibang tao. Salamat sa theme song namin na Umbrella. Si Yem nakaisip nyan. Biglang pumasok na lang sa isip ko si RAWR. Nasan na kaya sya? Naalala nya kaya ako? Ano kayang mangyayari pag nagkita kami? Papansinin nya ba ko? Mauulit ba ang lahat? HAHAHA. Adik din naman sya eh. Pwede. E kaso nakakahiya sa common friend namin. Ang kanta ko na lang talaga sa kanya ay eto:

One night and one more time
Thnks fr th mmrs eventhough they weren't so great... BLAH BLAH!

At isang malutong PAKYU sa dulo ng post na ito. Para sa kanya rin tong pusong durog. Punyeta umalis ka sa isip koooooo! Hindi na muna ko iisip ng lovelife. Tinatapon ko na sa ngayon.


P.S. Gagong time zone na to!!!

forum frenzy

song: I still haven't found what I'm looking for

Still up and the heck I will say I'm bored. I want to go to school NOW. And in school, I'll get tired. Tell me where to place myself??? This boredom fact makes me think of gigs. Its the thing I'm good at. Aside from ranting and sharing stories. I should get one or I'll self-destruct.

Pranks fucks. A friend played a joke on me. I hate him to death. He pretended to be someone. He made me go to her house, and its a good thing she lives within the neighborhood. We ended up laughing at my stupidity and his bad intentions. I will kill him when I see him. Boo. I was such a fool not to check on my phonebook etc. This calls for presence of mind. I'll be more careful on situations like this.

Layout dilemma. I'm still not contented with my layout, can't find the purrrfect one for me. So I'm bringing this one back. On layout hunt, or don't look for one anymore-make one. Haha.

Pinoy Thread. The PT on david-cook.org is running pretty fast. If you don't check for a day or two, you might get lost. Haha. But I love everyone in that site. They're friendly and thoughtful people. I'm just scared of the thread I made about I want to __ David. Someone replied that she wants to french kiss David. OMG. Haha. I hope nobody will be banned for whatsoever reasons. I just felt like being banned because of Andrew's interview about fan sites. That he was checking on them from the start of the season. That's cool. You should see more sites about David.

On the same site, I found this David Cook joke which made me LOL and will LOL forever.
Three Davids walk into a bar. The bartender asks them, "Which one of you is David Cook." They all respond saying they are David Cook. The bartender asks them to prove it. The first David starts singing Imagine. The bartender yells at him, "You are David Archuleta get out of my bar!" The second David gets on the bar and starts dancing. The bartender yells at him, "Get out of my bar! You're David Hernandez!" The bartender turns back to the third David as his cell phone rings. He picks it up and says, "Hello, Is it me you are looking for?"

One good joke esp the david Hernandez part. Haha. Imagine him singing ISHST. OMG.

Speaking of David, here's Cook trying to seduce or something. IDK but this is my fave pic of him now. I would love to lay on that sofa with him. Haha. The thoughts keep running with the look in his eyes. Sorry, Jason. I'll make it up to you tomorrow.

bored meeting

Had a confe with two of my ex-college classmates. They made me LOL. Oh and they're also perverts. But geez, they're funny. They made me thought of my first year in college, where I look like someone lost from a civil war.

Enough to say, I'm bored. Don't ask why.
Hotness in the Philippines. Take it literally.

I want to ___ you

I found that game at the idolforums. Then I love it after the true or false game.
I want to HUG JC. And never let go. This is infatuation and I don't want to end it. Now, I want to hurt my eyes, so here's the HHWW pic I was ranting about. You'll hear a heart fan girl's breaking, but to reciprocate, they seem cute though. SEEM.

On the brighter side, they're not married etc. Just dating but that's hurting. I have to LOL!
I'm probably a girl with a lame life, bored so I'm stalking. I have more Jason love today, he has the most adorable eyes, and maybe he's hotter that David. Bleh.

A week before school starts. I'm still lame in school. Nah.

fav

Guess what? I got a new layout. I'm bored so I changed it. My chatbox was lost somewhere. Too lazy to get it back. BACK... I'll be back to school on the 11th. I'm afraid. I'm nervous. This should be my last year in college. I should graduate on March 2009. Its a lot more pressure because everyone's expecting that. But its good to know I have a lot of people backing me up. I just don't know if they'll be there forever.

So random. Here are random things I want to accomplish, get or do this coming sem. Its a list. Boom. I love making lists.

• Pass ACTG@)! for God's sake PLS?!
• get steady on new profs. I don't wanna curse them anymore
• make NEW friends
• get a NEW bestfriend that will understand me, truly
  
• GIGS, just on weekends
• READ a novel (that I should've done before)
• have MORE fans to read my blog
• sign a petition that will set the graduation venue anywhere in the Phils except effin ULS
  
• develop my LOVE for JC, because DC keeps on ranting
• fix my room as needed
• throw my iPod away or get it fixed
  
• learn how to snap and whistle and smoke correctly
• get a life, the better and productive one
  

RAWR. I found a photo my two favorite men. Gotta post it.

Never ask me how much I love Cookie and Castro.

The AI season marathon is over. Thank God. My eyes nearly sore watching tv for like 10 hours straight! I need a break, but can't get my ass of the sofas. Same as I can't get my ass of thiscomputaaar. Rawr. I also watched Jeepers Creepers 2 yesterday. And in case you didn't know, THAT was my favorite movie, ever. IDK. I can watch it the whole day, and you won't hear me complain. I swear.

Fan Girl mode. I sign up anything. And so I won't forget this numbers, I'll post them here. Yeah it doesn't really matter. They're just numbers. For fun's sake. Or if ever I'll be lost, you'll know.
Word Nerd # 1502
Cookie #48
Castronaut #376
Cell Number 0916.. LOL. I won't do that.

Okay you can laugh now.